Daily Musing - November 10th, 2024 - Health Anxiety

So as I mentioned previously, I am off on long term disability due to my knees. Back in July, I was told that I would need a knee replacement in both of my knees. This upset me greatly but I felt vindicated. Having physical symptoms from anxiety my whole life, all my tests showed up negative. So I am feeling like hell but I am perfectly healthy. That really sucks! Anyways, I waited 4 months to see a surgeon and she says that I do not qualify for surgery as my knees are not bad enough. She made me feel like my knees were fine. I came out of that appointment ready to cry. I was hoping time would heal my emotional wounds but it has been a week and I am still devasted. It not the fact that I am not going to have painful surgery that is upsets me but the facts that the pain and the lack of function in my knees do not match my x-rays. Also, this means that my knees will not improve as there is nothing to be done.