My Experience with Energy Medicine and I How I Was Empowered by a Supernatural Experience

I would like to share my story with you about how I went to an Energy Medicine Practitioner. It was my therapist at the time that recommended her. My therapist was really into yoga and eastern philosophy.  I did not know what to believe in at that time. To be completely honest with you, I still do not know what I believe in. My aunt passed away and I attended her funeral a few days before my therapy session. “I feel so loss, death scares me,” I confided in her. “It must be hard when you don’t have a spiritual belief system,” she said looking concerned.  “I guess,” I said in resignation. My therapist looked smug, and she proudly announced, “I have a very strong belief system, there are things that have happened to me that I can’t explain.”  At the end of the session, she handed me a business card and said, “my client swears by this Energy practitioner, its up to you if you want to try her out.”  I took the card and tucked it into my purse. Little did I know at the time that I was about to have a crazy, supernatural, empowering experience! 

My job at the time was extremely stressful and I was in a state of anxiety and panic constantly.  On top of it all, I had an abusive co-worker named Sarah who was horrible and cruel.  “You are a the worst employee of all time, dreadful, talentless, hopeless….I had a discussion with the manager about you”, she said sneering.  When I look back, I know with a %100 certainty that I was a very good employee.  I was unable to stand up for myself.  Being in such a fearful state, I contacted the Energy Practitioner who was named Sheila and made an appointment.  When I first met her, I thought she was very stern and a no-nonsense type of person.  Not what I was expecting.  I was expecting a whimsical, fairy like practitioner.  Sheila was dressed as a businessperson with navy slacks and a navy blazer to match.  The first session, she said she was going to cut a cord with a female child who was a bully to me.  Shelia said, “I can see her with her hand over your mouth.”  I knew exactly who she was talking about!  If you have read my post about my experience with childhood bullying, you would know that I gingerly refer to her as “Satan”.  I picture Satan as a decaying, zombie type body and very dirty.  “OK, I am going to cut the cord now,” Sheila announced.  Sheila was stroking about a half a foot away from my body.  She then looked like she was tearing an invisible thread away from my body.  Suddenly, I could feel a rush of energy move through my body!  It was so powerful that I could not breath.  You have to remember that Sheila does not touch me during the session, just near me.  I was completely amazed!  I have no idea what I experienced but I could sure feel the energy move.  I have never felt anything like it again.  The next few sessions I was hoping to have a repeat but no such luck.

During Christmas holidays, I was in a complete state of anxiety 24 hours a day.  It was taking a toll of my body.  I had headaches, nausea and fatigue all the time.  I had a session with her the first week of January that was unforgettable.  I confided in her my state of fear and she said she was going to ask my body what is going on.  “It’s not even your fear, it’s your mother’s from your childhood.  Do you remember moving when you were very young?  I see your mother sitting on the stairs with her hand over her face thinking to herself that this is all too much.  It’s not your fear”.  She moved her hands over my body, and I could feel the fear go away!  I was in a state of peace!  The fear was completely gone!  It lasted for a few days! It was incredible.

Because of the enormous success I have had with her, I begin to rely on her to solve my anxiety issues.  I didn’t have another session like the one after Christmas.  I was so sad because I was so hopeful that she could stop my anxiety.  I eventually caved in and saw my family doctor who put me on antidepressants.  The antidepressants worked right away and were very helpful.  Sheila said that she was ok with this.  “You are just taking care of yourself, that’s all, if you body needs medicine, then take medicine”.  I started really believing in Sheila with all my heart.  At the time, I believed that all illnesses could be helped by Energy medicine.  I was a believer!

One day I had an appointment with Sheila after work.  By this time, we have had many sessions that nothing substantial came out of it.  She came in the treatment room and I explained to her that I have been feeling anxious.  I don’t know what she said to me but it sounded like she was angry. I told her that some of the things that she said were not resonating with me.  She seemed quite defensive and said some thing about what Mother Mary is saying.  It was negative and I was very hurt.  How could my healer be treating me like this?  I was devasted.  All of a sudden, I could see a gold Buddha coming towards me.  I have a hard time explaining this.  It was kind of through my mind’s eye but it was solid.  I felt great joy and peace.  I could hear Sheila lecturing me in the background.  I turned and saw a painting of Jesus on a card that was sitting on her shelf.  I didn’t mention what I saw to Sheila.  In fact, I have not told anyone about this.  It is too crazy, too other worldly.  I left her treatment room and that was the last time I saw Sheila.

I went home and locked myself in the bathroom and cried.  If felt like my new belief system has been punctured and torn apart.  How could Sheila be so mean?  Then I would remember the vision of the Buddha and felt great peace.  The next day, I had no more tears instead I had a smirk on my face and a peaceful feeling when I remembered my vision. 

I knew from deep inside me what the Buddha meant.  It meant that I have the power, not another person.  It was time to look within.  This is when I started different kinds of meditation. I have been to many many Energy healers, and none were as powerful as Sheila.  Sheila could not do the work for me, I needed to do that myself.  I have the power inside of me.

I don’t know what the “vision” was.  Was it something created by my brain? Was it supernatural giving me guidance?  What do you think?